Random quote: “Even the biggest ball of twine unwinds.” –Jewish Proverb
If you knew me beyond this blog you would know that crafts and I go together like oil and water. Maybe we can get put in the same ‘glass’, and you can shake us up to mix, but after a few minutes we separate and agree that we really don’t mix for any length of time. But when I saw that Jewish proverb on Facebook, it struck a chord with me.
“Even the biggest ball of twine unwinds.” –Jewish Proverb
My ball of twine, skein of yarn, spool of thread is unwinding. Sometimes so slowly I don’t realize until after the bit has been removed, sometimes so rapidly I can barely catch my breath. This tightly wound thread that is my life is unraveling from my hands. And as much as I fight to keep the thread all jumbled up together in a messy ball of jumbled colors and broken threads, it’s being pulled inch by inch away from me. And I can’t keep it together anymore.
So those that love me are stepping in to help. And the God that loves me and knows me, but still feels so distant to me right now is showing me He cares about me too. He doesn’t just care about me, He loves me. That this work of pulling the threads of my life that might be broken or faded and replacing them with the bright and vibrant colors of thread that is His truth is worth it.
I have to keep telling myself that, because sometimes I think the work is to hard. And I scramble to gather up the little scraps and pieces of my life that have been so gently pulled away from me in an effort to get back to where things were ‘normal’. But once I learn truth, I have to give up the lies. Because lies and truth can’t live together, can they? And my sense of normal is skewed right now. What is normal anyways?
So this is where I am. Standing in a pile of mismatched and broken threads. Surrounded by the scraps from a life I’ve been trying to piece together in the dark. Now that I’m starting to see things in the light of God’s truth, I’m asking for help to make this tapestry into something beautiful. But first, it needs to come apart so the damaged parts can be removed and they can be replaced with His healing.