No Perfect Moment

I committed to blogging again. I committed to you. I committed to share my story. And I got two whole posts up. And then life has kicked in and I keep waiting for that perfect combination of kids in bed or occupied, husband doing his thing, all the house work is done and there is nothing else to deal with. But you know what? That moment never comes.

This idea that if I just had the right set up. Or maybe if I just wait until the best opportunity comes along for me. If I could just get this one last thing handled. If all those things come together then I will have time to do whatever I feel most passionate about.

It’s all lies.

There will never be a perfect moment without a hundred other little squeezed in moments to develop your craft. There is never going to be the one perfect opportunity with out a hundred other half attempts or even failures. I’m never going to have that one last thing handled cause there are always about a thousand more things jumping to take the place of the one last thing.

I have stuff and you have stuff. It’s about setting aside time and maybe sacrificing so the time is there. For me that means cutting back on how much television I watch. Or how much time I take to play games on my iPad. It might mean saying no to some things and yes to others. Maybe it means I get up a half an hour later so I have time to set up for the day instead of hitting the ground at warp speed leaving me to exhausted to work on my craft at the end of the day. It’s about being at the place that I can’t put off this need to write any longer. It means that the fire lit in me is going to consume me if I don’t speak out. I’ve found my passion, my calling. Now it’s time to get to work on it.

Is it time to start yours?



The Blog unwritten

Today’s prompt was to write about the blog post I didn’t publish. The one that may have made it from my head, to my notes, to WordPress but never made it out of the que of posts.


I don’t have any posts that have made it to the computer and not been released into cyberspace. I also haven’t been blogging very long. I have posts that I have written notes about that haven’t quite grown up enough to become a blog. Things about religion or quotes that I’ve read or heard in a sermon. I have ideas to do book report style posts and link them up with Amazon, ad sense or Good Reads. But the posts never come to fruition because more pressing ideas come to mind when I make the time to write. Or I just plain old forget about the idea. That’s more often the case.

It’s not about being afraid to post something, it’s more that other ideas come up and crowd out what I thought I was going to write about for the next post. I didn’t start blogging because I wanted to just write more things that people might agree with. I started blogging so I could have a place to put into words my feelings about life. If others can find comfort in my journey, I think that’s great. If they can’t, they probably shouldn’t read it. I don’t mean to offend others, but I’m also not writing to everyone. Because you can’t make everyone happy all the time. There is always someone who will be unhappy with me or what I write. Or I might end up unhappy if I constantly edit a post down until it’s just a bunch of bland blech.


Those are my thoughts on the post not posted.




Tidbit: I prefer snow and cold to rain and cold. The snow covers up my unkempt lawn.

I was running again this morning. It’s crazy. But a good kind of crazy. Not the stalker kind of crazy. Anywhoo, while I was running, I was having a hard time of it. The weather is cold (without snow, so that is crappy to me) and there was this wind that was hard to run through. I was glad I didn’t have any asthma issues, because I probably would have needed an inhaler. So I’m running, and it’s windy and I am having a hard time. I also haven’t been out running in about a week. Ok, it had been ten days since the last run.  This was my first run in a while and that also makes it difficult. Because my body was remembering what it was like to be asleep at this time. To be warm and not freezing in the name of exercise. There were a lot of protests in my head to just “forget” to wake up this morning.

You know why I did it? Why I got up even though my body just wanted to stay in bed? There are a few reasons.

1. Probably the most true reason, is that I have accountability. I have a friend that I meet with to run three times a week. As we get closer to the new year that’s going to be four times a week. This leads me to number two.

2. I have a goal. At the beginning of August, my friend (that I run with) said she wanted to do the Indy mini. I had had our third child and was ready to get back out there running. So we set a goal to run the Indy mini. You could join us. Just click on the highlighted link and register. The race is one of the more popular ones of it’s kind. That means it can fill up and you can miss out on the awesome opportunity to be a part of the Indy mini.

3. I like to eat. A lot. Especially cake. I like to eat cheese and bread. I like all those cream sauces on pasta. So that means I like calories. Thus the need to run.

4. When I am running, that usually means I am writing on the blog. And I really enjoy doing that.

While I was running, it became really difficult to keep going. I was tired, my legs felt like blocks of ice and my breathing was getting more labored and shallow. So I started breaking down the goal of the entire run’s distance into smaller increments. Like just make it to the next mail box. Ok, you did it, now go on to the next one. Ok, let’s cross this street. And it went on like that until my running partner and I got to our speed work. I do that with most of my goals. You can too. Yes we can dream big and pursue great things, but it starts with small stuff. A little bit of work each day adds up to a whole lot after awhile.

There is one of my goals. To run a few times a week. It doesn’t happen without my friend to meet. So if you have a goal, you should tell someone. Accountability is a great way to make sure you get something done. But you have to tell someone who is going to make you do your goal.

What are your goals? You can share them here. I promise to remind you of them.  And you can do the same for me. 🙂

Goals for 2013

Run the Indy mini, eat gluten free for one month, participate in Script frenzy.



A slow build

Random tidbit: If you have children with a tendency to lose their shoes, have them leave their shoes in the car. It makes searching for the shoes easier. Cause you have a smaller area to look in.

If you didn’t realize, this month is NaNoWriMo. That stands for National Novel Writing Month. For the month of November, thousands of people will be attempting to write 50 thousand words in one month. I started this process for this year. It’s slow going. i went away for the weekend. I have been worn out because I am sick. And each day I don’t meet my word count, the task seems harder and harder. As in, it would be worth it to just quit.

Then I see a tweet from Jon Acuff. It was all about our dreams and how we would prefer them to be easily attained. Like salt, something that’s in every home and available at most stores. It’s cheap to buy and accessible to everyone. But most dreams aren’t like that, they are like saffron, an exotic and expensive seasoning. It takes a lot of work for saffron to be harvested and then it’s expensive to use. Here is the full post.

That got me to thinking. Yes, I am behind on my goal for NaNoWriMo, but that doesn’t mean I should give up. It just means I might have to choose to write instead of watch an episode or two of television this week. Because that is a sacrifice I am willing to make.

What about you? Do you have a dream, goal project that you are behind on? Don’t give up! I don’t think I will ever regret choosing to go for NaNoWriMo rather than watching an episode of television. I don’t think you would either.


Working Plan

Random tip- short indoor tracks are not the best way to run for three and a half miles.

This week I wrapped up the Bible study that I was a part of on the book of Nehemiah. I referenced it a few times, here and here. It opened my eyes so much to the need for me to reach out to others. To be looking for ways to share God’s love with others. In a tangible and real way, not just in a check writing way.

The last few days in particular were a firm reminder to press on to the work that God has laid out for me. Even when I don’t understand or know what will come after this first step, to just keep moving forward until there is a definite “NO” from God. The quote I liked best from Kelly Minter‘s video was “I may not know what’s in front of me, but there is nothing I am clutching now that is worth forgoing the work God has laid in my heart.” That was at the very end of our last video session. And it’s so very true for me.

Nothing I hold dear is as important as God’s work that he has given me. OR for you. But it’s so easy to get distracted. There’s home, family, work. Church, ministry, activities. What is the balance in all of this? I feel like God has been pretty clear to me on what the work is that He has for me. Just typing this post is evidence of that. Life sometimes gets in the way, I think with discipline, daily being persistent in carving out time to do the work God has for you and me is what builds momentum in us to keep going forward with God’s work for us.

But I know it’s not always clear for every one. That God reveals Himself in His own timing to each of us when we are able to hear Him. While you are waiting for the full plan to be revealed to you it can be difficult. There is a page in the Dr. Seuss book “Oh the places you will go” that talks about the waiting place. It’s a bunch of people just sitting around waiting. You can get stuck there. Just sitting around waiting for God’s plan to be revealed. And that’s good for a time. The tricky thing is knowing when God is saying to move forward and when He means for us to be still and wait. Pray, pray pray in this season.

Sometimes saying yes to God’s work means saying no to the plans you have. I know that I had my life planned out a certain way, and it hasn’t turned up that way. At all. And it would have been easier to wallow in remorse and anger over different situations. However, God used the people in my life to help me see that God wasn’t punishing me for anything by taking my life in a different direction, He was moving me toward Him. Looking back, I am so grateful for those encouragers. I want to be that for others now.

So that’s where I am, just trying to be obedient and faithful to the work God has laid out for me. What has he laid out for you? Have you ever thought about it?